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Back of My Head
01:06
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from the back of my head to the tip of my tongue there are ten miles of bad road
so everything I say tonight will go horribly wrong
it never has stopped me from tossing back shots as if somehow it gave me control
you can pity the first foolish soul who gets me to talk
well i can’t blame the world when it’s turned on its ear by a girl that i care for
i can’t blame the whiskey, ‘cause i took it willingly, right?
there’s no fault at all to the friends who don’t call when they figure i’m probably done for
so i’ll say my piece, pack my sh.., and get out of your sight.
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Clap Along
03:15
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i use the word “love” way too often
it has always been a problem
one day i know it’s gonna be my fatal flaw
’cause i’m the little boy who cried it
and nobody seemed to mind it
but when it’s been real i’ve seen it fail to register at all
i have stayed in way too late
played way too many games
there’s a lot of ways to deal with the impression that i leave
compliment or criticize
condescend or analyze
or you can clap along if you are just like me
i will not hang this on my parents
though it could have that appearance
psychologists, psychiatrists and dentists all agree
that if you mix a kid that’s lonely
with a disapproving home
you get a drink that bears remarkable resemblance to me
i won’t click to that cliché
when in oh so many ways
i am happy with the freak that i am growing up to be
i’ve got sorrow i’ve got shame
and i’m learning that’s ok
and you can...
so clap along if you’ve got issues
clap along if you’ve got flaws
clap along if you’ve got mornings where you don’t leave bed at all
clap along if you’ve stayed silent when you should stand up and fight
clap along if people hate you and you kind of take their side
don’t we all have our afflictions?
don’t we all have battle scars?
doesn’t everybody know the same three chords on this guitar?
be you victors, be you victims
when you listen to this song
is there anyone i’ve missed who feels compelled to clap along?
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3. |
Trouble
02:33
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when you have had your fill of the trouble you’ve asked for
don’t hesitate to come ‘round knocking on this door
and if i’m still living here
if you ask me nice i’m sure
i’ll let you in
you’re the trouble i adore
i never asked for peace
there’s been no talk of silence and
i’ve got no use for ease
when love gets hard
love gets loud
love gets downright violent
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The Game Of Us
03:07
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the game of us is on again
the condensation’s on your skin
yeah, we’re both method actors, nominated for the win
and it’s hard to tell where fiction stops or where our truth begins
oh, you say you’ll never want a husband but you’ll always want a lover
oh, maybe so
oh, you say you think i’d fall to pieces if you found yourself another
i don’t wanna know, i don’t wanna know
you play me like a castanet
or like you won me in a bet
easy come, easy go, you know the house will always win
but we soldier on and pray we’ll both break even in the end
i should leave but i can’t so i won’t and you know and you use the information so well
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Misophone
03:39
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oh, when we got the plastic plates
it might’ve been our worst mistake
no one should have to live that way
eating in our separate rooms
each meal that we had made for two
both afraid to face the truth
it wasn’t quirky
it wasn’t funny
it wasn’t something any drink could wash away
it’s been my constant companion all my days
It’ll spin me in my grave
i’ve got a little white machine
it makes a sound so I can sleep
pretending that I’m on the beach
i’ve got a system locked in place
for staying cool on crowded trains
by fixing on a point in space
it’s in a pinprick
it’s in a slow drip
the tiny tensions that can bleed you ‘til you’re pale as paste
it’s been...
i’ve been called a fraud by some
been called a lying son
been called an egotist, a narcissist by trade, oh i’ve
been put through regimens
been probed like a specimen
hell i’ve been everything and it’s never been ok
it’s all around me
in all the sounds we
can take for granted ‘til they meet at center stage
it’s been...
no one should have to live this way
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6. |
Peter for Paul
03:15
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don’t spare me the rod
i know what i’ve done
i know why you’re here
i’ll know why when you’ve gone
i feel like you’ve aged me but you’re still so young
and you keep finding ways to steal from peter for paul
if i give you a smile
you’ll throw me a wink
then we’re gonna shake these walls, they’ll crumble to pieces
morning and night will bleed into one
as we keep finding ways to steal from peter for paul
so let’s sit this one out
we know how it ends
as hard as we’ve tried, tried, tried
we can’t just be friends
and it’s time you trade up
we’ve made our mistakes
and you’ll be better off for taking peter for paul
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Not Giving Up
04:36
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paint a tunnel on the side of a wall
tell me love’s at the end
i will crash into it
every time
’cause i get through the day to day on belief
that love is still possible
however improbable
i still find it everywhere
coming through the sidewalk, catching air
and growing over time
call me a fool
i’ll say “Maybe it’s true but i’m not crazy
and i’m not giving up.”
show me the men who fall again and again
they won’t faze me
i’m not giving up on love
give me just a little meat off the bone
i’ll make a meal of it
i’ll tell you it’s one that’s fit for a king
but i spent all my youth berating my friends who got in relationships
”just think of the fun you’ll miss”
and now i see them everywhere
talking to their children
saying, “there’s your favorite uncle paul”
call me a fool....
even when it’s bleakest
i’ll remind myself that there’s someone with hope
someone who knows that love is not a piece of fiction that i wrote
love is possible
however improbable
i know
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why are we still on the phone?
i got the point a minute ago
why won’t you leave me alone?
why are we still on the phone?
what are the fewest words to use to end this call?
this conversation never needed me at all
i got the message that you’d rather be alone
tell me that it’s not me
that and a buck can get you coffee
why...
been through the ringer and got tired of playing games
the day i met you was the day i tried to change
turns out you like your men aloof and distance-prone
we could’ve had such fun
you don’t know how fast i can run, oh/why...
why are we still on this yellowed page
with the plotline wearing thin?
i can’t wait for the next book to begin
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We Caved In
04:09
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i reminisce on how you lifted me off my feet
kissing me outside the sunburnt cow on ave c
i hate the rain, but when it came i just held you tight
my hands on the small of your back in a posture we’d memorized
we, we caved in
we gave up
we fell out
we let us down
when we threw in the towel
we threw in the towel
we caved in
and now i lie awake and try to forget your name
12 fl oz chase after each other to wash you away
but once you snap the seal off the dam it’s too late to stop
you can pray all you want but the town’s getting flooded
and it’s all your fault
we...
oh, and i need you like i thought i never could
oh, and dependency has never done me good
i hope you’re not the one
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Pointless
03:48
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nothing could be more pointless
than trying to talk to you
when i can’t change your mind
but i couldn’t see a choice left
’cept trying to sleep this off
and I tried that once tonight
i know you’re not in the wrong
yeah that’s the greatest pill of all
you know if i had right on my side
i’d show up every night
i’d never stop trying
i never took a moment
with everything you said
to try to see your side
you gave me a dot, a line, a graph
a chart, a figure and a map
but i never saw the light
i know....
so maybe this wasn’t pointless
’cause i finally understand
what you told me all along
and i’m glad i came across you
crashed in to your rocks
that’s where that boat belonged
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11. |
Here Goes Nothing
03:57
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spent a lot of time sitting here
staring at the wall at things i know aren’t even there
if i look at you i know i’ll lose
all sensation in my spine
spent a lot of time
thinkin’ ‘bout
what i’d say to you if i could open up my mouth
i have never been this worried ‘bout
anything i’ve ever tried
somewhere in your eyes
i get dumb and paralyzed but
i’ll confide in anyone who’ll listen to my wistful pining
spent a lot of time wondering
how the players always know that they are gonna win
that kind of life, it must be nice
never standing to the side
never have to try
everything just falls in line
i’ll confide in anyone who’ll listen to my wistful pining
every time you catch my eye
i think i’ve fallen off the deep end
why am i so shy?
nothing left to lose but pride
here goes nothing
if my grace is absent
it’s because your beauty makes me stupid
please forgive my stumbling
it’s just that you make language useless
spent a lot of time sittin’ here
just a shadow on your wall
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Please
02:57
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please
put your name on my mailbox
take this chain and this padlock
and bind my heart
and please
hang your hat next to my coat
hang your robe on my bedpost
without a second thought
i want you to eat what i cook
and tell me it’s good
even if i burn it
and i want you to not be the one
who chooses to run
’cause you got nervous
i want you to be the one who takes my blue
to be the one who makes me you
to be the one i wake up to
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You're Mine
03:11
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you’re mine
can’t talk your way out of it
i’ve got you and now you get just what your parents said about the boys
how we’ll get you in our sights
how we’ll treat you oh so nice until you give your heart without a choice
but you’ve got me back,
yeah, you’ve got me back, you do
you're mine (i'm yours)
you're over the moon for it
i've got you and now you get just what your parents said about the girls
how they’ll let you think you’ve won
but it’s all part of the fun
still by the end you won’t believe your luck
so I’ve got your back, yeah, I’ve got your back, I do
been countin’ all my blessings, learned all of my lessons
never gonna give you up
we talked through all our issues
killed a box of tissues
we’re still standing here because it’s love
you’re mine
but it’s not a war we won
we both put down our guns and found it easier to get along
you're just like my favorite song
even if it’s sad in parts, when it comes ‘round, there’s nothing else I want
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just two years ago
if you had asked me i would tell you that love was a two-legged beast
killed for the king
and then summarily dismissed for not being enough of a meal
but i didn’t know you then
my camera had lost its lens
but now you’re here and i understand
by the sun and its course
you can always know where your nose is pointing
as long as there is a north
i will always find my way back home to you
just as long as you want me to
two years ago
i was face down in a pool of ennui, i was unsatisfied
afraid that i would be beholden to the old status quo until i gave in and died
i welcomed the sweet embrace
of a slow silent fade
by the sun and its course…
two of us have
so much more in our quiver than
one ever can
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Both Sides, Now
04:33
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Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feathered canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now, they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would've done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's clouds' illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all.
Moons and Junes, and ferris wheels
That dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave them laughing when you go
And if you cared don't let 'em know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all.
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads
They say I've changed, well
Something's lost
But something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all.
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Paul Tabachneck New York
I started doing music in Pittsburgh, fronting the folk-rock band Stone Soup, the dark-pop band Dead Pressed Flowers, and the Power Pop band Manpig aka Everybody Wins. After that, I moved to New York, mostly playing solo and busking a lot. Now I live in CT and play in my home office because everything is bad and no one can go out. See me Wednesdays at 7:30 at facebook.com/paultab! ... more
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